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Dear Brother...

Song: My December

Artist: Linkin Park

This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear

Dear Hiei,

I thought I’d make you a Christmas card this year, but then I realized something as I started to remember everything that’s happened since and before we’ve met.

This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone

This year, like every year, my brother isn’t here with me… mainly because I’ve never found him. I was always alone on Koorime since my mother past, and I started to search for him even more.

And I
Just wish that
I didn’t feel
Like there was
Something I missed

I used to ask myself, “What am I missing? I know he’s alive, so why can’t I find him?” and then I’d shake my head, searching once more.

And I
Take back all
The things I said
To make you
Feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn’t feel
Like there was
Something I missed

When I found my mother’s tear gem, actually I caught falling from the sky, I was so happy! My brother was near me! I had thought that that winter day, I would see my sibling and he would see me.

And I
Take back all the
Things I said to you
Once again I had searched; I had lied to myself over and over again. “He’s here! Don’t worry, you’ll find him!” I kept thinking as I discovered that he wasn’t near me.

And I’d
Give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
I’d give all my tear-gems if only I had him with me! You see, Hiei-san, I’d do anything to have my brother back.

This is my December
These are my snow covered dreams
This is me pretending
This is all I need

I pretend that I’m okay, pretending to be content and patient, if truth be told. Kazuma’s nice and funny and all, but I need my brother so bad! Don’t you see?

And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things I said
To make you feel like that
Hiei-kun, if I’ve ever made you feel uncomfortable about asking you to find him, I’m sorry. I…I just seemed to trust you more than the others. Kurama-san is really nice, and I’m sure he’d find him too, but Hiei-kun, I just feel like you’re so much closer to me than a friend…like a brother.

And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the things
I said to you
And I’d
Give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
What do I have to do to just see him? What will it take to find him? Truth is, Hiei-kun, looking over all this and the times you were so nice to me, I’ve found him. At last, I’ve found my brother.

This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
Hiei, it’s no use hiding it now. I’ve found out, I’ve put the puzzle pieces together on my own and now the riddle is solved. It’s so clear to me now.

And I’d
Give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to

Whether I call you Hiei-san, Hiei-kun, or just Hiei, I’ll now know about how blind I was to see it all. You see, Hiei,
I know you’re my brother, so stop acting like you’re not.
Niisan, if you think I don’t love you just because of what you’ve done, you’re terribly wrong. I love you, Hiei, and I always will.
You’ve always acted like a brother to me; I don’t know why I never noticed. I know who you are, and you’re the kind, caring, and protective brother I thought you were…no, I know you are.

Love, your sister,

Yukina